Sunday, December 28, 2008

Santa Hats

Yesterday I made the long drive home from Florida to Tennessee. It was way too long of a drive ending way too short of a trip. I had a wonderful time with my family and the week flew by. Outside of Lake city I spotted an older couple driving along in a SUV both wearing Santa hats and ridiculous grins. It was 2 days after Christmas and there appeared to be no one else in the vehicle. It was weird, but as I thought about it some more (as there was plenty of time to think in my 9 hour drive) I remembered an old poem I had written and it seemed appropriate:

I pitied a homeless man yesterday
It was cold and rainy

He was walking, dirty and downtrodden
Holding a paper coffee cup
Poor and "unsuccessful"
But not alone

He walked with a woman
Equally dirty, equally downtrodden
Facing the cold rain
Together

Warm by the fire in a trendy coffee house
I sipped my caramel macchiato
Affluent and "successful"
Alone

I envied a homeless man yesterday

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Christmas Eve

When I was little Christmas Eve used to be one of the most exciting days of the year. My brothers and I would lie on our stomachs in front of the Christmas tree and decide which dream gift each brightly wrapped box held and what order we would open them in on Christmas morning. As the night drew near we would begin negotiations on when we could get out of bed on Christmas morning. For some ungodly reason I remember wanting to get up around 5 but Mom and Dad didn't usually let us get up earlier than 7. Around 6:45 my brother's and I would get out of bed and open our bedroom doors in anticipation of 7am. Sometimes Tyler and Kevin would sneak to the edge of the stairs. When the clock hit the exact designated time we burst over the threshold of the hallway and run into the living room where the tree and our unwrapped gifts from Santa awaited. Mom and Dad always took entirely too long to get ready, at least from an excited child's point of view, and then they tortured us by making us listen to the Christmas story and pray before we could open our gifts. For some reason I remember the story being like an hour long even though my father would only read the second chapter of Luke. My brother Kevin is big on tradition and announced to us just this week that the bible that we have been reading the Christmas story out of for as long as I can remember just had its 20th birthday. Dad asked why he didn't let us know sooner, we would have baked a cake. I think sarcasm is also a Christmas tradition in my house.

Today my "baby" brother is 23 years old and Christmas isn't quite the same event. Our presents this year are wrapped and placed under an antique desk in our living room instead of a Christmas tree and I have yet to dig through the pile yet to identify which presents are mine. We will try to get our parents to sleep until 10, although we will probably lose this negotiation and drag ourselves out of bed around 8. I'll want a cup of coffee before I touch one gift and the Christmas story will pass quickly. However, Christmas is still special for me because it is a time to relax and enjoy my family. While my perception of Christmas has changed dramatically it is still of my favorite times of year. I am thankful that I have such fond memories of Christmas and that there were always gifts under the tree and a special breakfast to enjoy. It is a time to be thankful for our family and friends and for the gift that ultimately inspired this whole season. It is also a time to remember those who aren't as fortunate as ourselves. I've had a good life and a good year and I truely hope that daily I give more than I get. So Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I hope it's everything you dreamed it would be. (no sarcasm intended :))

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Retraction

As if Kanye himself was presenting me with an argument on why not to like him, he was on SNL this past Saturday and was absolutely AWFUL. I was wishing he had pulled an Ashley Simpson and lip synced it the whole time. I watched it embarrassed for him and for me who apparently published a blog professing my love at a very bad time. Luckily I'm not too fickle...I don't think.

I need to blog

It's been entirely too long since I wrote my last blog. For someone who always has something to say I've been pretty quiet. To be perfectly honest I've been completely overwhelmed. About 4 blogs ago I proudly announced that I was about to be footloose and fancy free since my classes were over. If only that were the case! It seems like I haven't stopped running since classes ended.

I'm trying to transfer my MBA program to UTC in the fall and that has created a whole new list of tasks including financial aid, getting old syllabi (is that the proper plural of syllabus?) buying books and registering. My FSU classes were good and I learned a lot, including the fact that I hate online classes. I'm looking forward to having an actual teacher and actual classmates with whom I can compare notes and grades and possibly complaints about the real live teacher I'm so excited about. Of course in a month I may be writing a blog entitled, I hate commuting to Chattanooga, but I think I can handle 2 nights a week. I'm also looking forward to having a chance to catch up with my Chattanooga friends since now I never leave Cleveland on a week night.

This is the first season I've truly experience holiday stress. I have enjoyed my Christmas season so far but I don't know that I've had less than 10 things on my to do list at any given moment.

I watched a lot of the Auto makers hearings and couldn't figure out how a President (or President elect) who doesn't believe in trickle down economics (as evidenced by an emphasis on tax cuts for the middle and lower class and an increase in capital gains tax) would also support a bail-out for the Auto Makers who are quite obviously at the top of the economy. If this money won't trickle down then what the heck are we doing? In the interest of remaining "fair and balanced" I also don't understand conservatives who continuously threw around "socialist" like a dirty word during the election supported this bailout. Giving a failing company millions of dollars of tax payer money definitely isn't capitalism. I understand that something needed to be done but I just wish people who so passionately take sides would at least stick to the sides they choose.

I finished my Christmas shopping. I'm not going to lie, I think I did really well at least as far as my immediate family is concerned. I'm excited. I'll definitely take some pictures and share my success (or failure) with you come Christmas morning.

A couple of weeks ago I was so embarrassingly excited to get a new phone (The Blackberry Storm which I have fallen in love with). I went over to the COG headquarters to pick it up (I'm on a corporate plan so I had to pick it up there) and as I'm floating out of the office with my prized possession in hand a lady runs up to me and asks me if I drive a grey Jetta. I hesitantly answered yes as she proceeded to apologize. I had to laugh...I think she thought I was weirdly calm about the fact that she backed into my car and dented my wheel well. I just couldn't get over the perfect timing of it all. I was more annoyed that I had something to add to my to do list than anything else...

Are my blogs too long?..I probably could have divided this into a weeks worth and not have to worry about being a consistent blogger anymore.

Friday, December 12, 2008

My first tree


This is the first year I actually put up and decorated my own Christmas tree. Granted it is only 4 feet tall but its the perfect size for my living room. One of the ladies at work gave me a nice full sized tree but I barely had enough ornaments for this one so I decided to shop for ornaments at the 75% off sales after Christmas and graduate to a full sized tree next year. I'm taking baby steps to being a full fledged grown-up.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Mr.West

I’m moderately self aware and I realize that a stranger who saw me walking down the street would probably not peg me for a hip-hop connoisseur. However, anyone who knows me well knows that I love Kanye West. I remember watching the video for Through the Wire in my college apartment on Centenary and marveling at this producer turned rapper who wore argyle sweater vests and rapped his first single with his jaw wired shut. He had me from “I drink a boost for breakfast, an Ensure for dizert, someone order pancakes I just sip the sizirp, that right there could drive a sane man bizirq.” My affection grew with All Falls Down, a song with another personal favorite Lauren Hill, where he laments materialism and “the things we buy to cover up what’s inside.” I remember quickly adding Jesus Walks to my work out list, singing along to Gold Digger at Fox and the Hound and playing Stronger until it became my highest ranked song on i-tunes. I can’t think of a better summer jam than Good Life or a song that makes me happier than Touch the Sky. I know by writing this, I am opening myself up to ridicule from many of my “music-snob” friends, but whether you are a fan or not, Kanye’s contribution to music and subsequently popular culture is hard to ignore.

Contrary to the testimonies of most rappers, Kanye didn’t grow up hustling on the streets. His mother was a college professor and he grew up in a middle class home. His out of the ordinary background inspires out of the ordinary lyrics that are both thoughtful and clever. In addition to his refreshingly different point of view, Kanye’s tracks boast skillful production and creative sampling. He makes songs one can’t help but love. He never sounds caned (though he does use quite a bit of auto-tune) and every song is uniquely creative. His new album is quite a change from previous releases but it has the same innovative beats, introspective lyrics and emotional delivery.

Before the abuse begins, let me point out that years of openly appreciating Kanye have resulted in almost every argument of why I should not and I think I’ve got an answer for all of them. The most popular response to my admiration is a reminder of one of his plethora of famous one liners including “George Bush doesn’t care about Black people” and “I want to be Elvis.” Is he a PR nightmare or a PR genius? Love him or hate him you know who he is. Not to mention the fact that I find his unpredictable appearances and tantrums at award show entertaining. Isn’t all press good press?

My least favorite argument is “How can you like him? He is so arrogant.” Of course he is arrogant. The guy blows off 60 radio stations in one morning and refuses to play in his assigned slot at Bonnoroo and still releases every album at number one. I’d be a bit arrogant too. I was pretty proud of myself this last week when I successfully set up a conference call with not three but FOUR people (please hold your applause until the end). I have no intentions of turning this into a political debate but this argument makes about as much sense as the “Obama is an elitist” argument. If he didn’t think he was better than everyone he wouldn’t be running for President and frankly if he wasn’t better than most people I wouldn’t want him running. To play on the level of a Kanye West or a Jay Z or a Cold Play (for those of you who won’t get this blog if I don’t mention a rock band) you literally have to be the best in the WHOLE WORLD. I think at least a small dose of arrogance comes with that title. Kanye is simply one of the few artists who refuse to jump through hoops to appear selfless and humble. Most humble guys don’t wear leather pants (That’s right, I’m talking to you Bono). I’m not saying his behavior isn’t annoying or that I could stand to hang out with him on a regular basis but I will continue to rock Kayne at every possible occasion. My love will go on, Heartless is quickly on its way to my new #1.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Mindless

I'M FINISHED!!

Today's exam was really hard and I hope I did ok. While I'm a bit anxious about the results I am relieved that my online classes are over. I expected this huge release when I walked out of the testing center but that didn't really happen. I think I'm so used to having assignments and readings hanging over my head that it didn't really hit me that I'm free. However, the more I envision all of the mindlessly enjoyable activities that await, the more excited I get. If nothing else, all the months of hard work have made me appreciate simple things like getting off work and doing absolutely nothing, lighting a Woodwick candle and reading books that have been sitting on my bed stand forever (Three cups of tea and Wicked). I'm dreaming of guilt-free weeknight dinners with friends and finally watching step brothers. While this list may not seem like much to many of my dear readers, to someone who has been pouring over Managerial accounting books and calculating returns on stocks for the past 6 months, it sounds like heaven to me!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

I'm about to be the happiest girl on earth

Hello all! I just wanted to announce to everyone that tomorrow at about 10:30 am I will be finished my last final of the semester and will be officially done with online classes (at least for the time being). This has been a challenging semester for me and I can't even begin to describe to you how big of a weight will be lifted once this exam is over. Get ready for a whole new Jenn! Or if you have known me a while...Good Old Jenn will return. I also have 2 weeks off work at Christmas to look forward too! I am desperate need of some friend time so "holla!"